one of the 7 sins

Jealousy.

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She can't help but feel envious of her friends' successes. The places they'll be, the places they'll see, oh and the places they'll go. On her way back home, she cried. She never dreamt in her 4 years of hard work and dedication, that this would be the college she would end up visiting. This would be the college she would be attending.

You see, I am the things i love.. I am also the things i do not love. 

People have told her to accept it. Accept and move on. She's got one part down. She's accepted this unfair life. Move on? That phrase.. That phrase people use to comfort others, overwhelmed her with discomfort. Her heart is heavy. Her heart is burdoned. 

I dont think you understand. I am not who i thought i was. 

One word kept flipping through her mind. It was like pages you skim through to understand the big picture. But it was like pages you skim through and miss the big picture; that big concept.

So why? Why? Why? Why?

Why kept flipping through her mind. 

Why Why Why

she was blind. She read each letter but couldnt put it together. 

Were the answers hidden between the lines?

She sees, You dont think she understands.

Understand. Thats what ive been trying to do.

Understand. 

Under - stand.

She cant stand tall, shes under their expectations. Shes under you, shes under me.

Underneath it all. she aint nobody, till she makes it as somebody