i've been single for about... 4 months now?
I know what youre thinking.. thats not long. But considering my love life, its something to dwell upon.

However, during my lonely self searching days, i realized that i dont recall the last time a guy made me get butterflies in my stomach. I dont remember when i felt anxious or nervous around someone i truly liked, that sometimes i would stumble upon words and have a hard time puzzling them together. I dont remember the last time a guy has made my blood rush, heart beat faster, or cheeks rosier everytime he came near me.

I just dont remember.

It feels so long ago.. It was my first kiss. After that, things became seemingly easier to do. Its true, holding hands ease its way to hugs, hugs ease its way to cuddling, cuddling eases its way to kisses on cheeks.. and so forth.

All these things have lost their essence.

Its true, things that are overdone are meaningless, in a way.

Sometimes my words seem to speak louder than my actions. I've sparingly used words such as "love" to intermingle with the words "i" & "you".

I'm going to wait. No more building short relationships on petty crushes.
I'm going to wait for that feeling to come again. I want to hold hands w/someone for the first time again. The kind of holding-hands that result in sweaty palms due to those euphoric feelings we give one another.
I want him to feel that way too.
I want him to be nervous, anxious, cant think straight sort of thing.


where the eff am i going w/this.

Anyways seriously, why do men have nipples? it's been bothering me so.