Fool-ish

I'm bored. I want to go out and explore, but not alone. I want to be exhausted with exhilaration, i want my blood to rush and give me no time to think. I'd like to get lost in someone's eyes. I'd like to know the words coming out of my mouth.

I want to feel.

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I realized that although ive dated plenty of boys (i say boys bc they lack common sense), i still have a lot of firsts to experience in the future. I have yet to go to disneyland for some sort of anniversary. I have yet to recieve my frst tiffanys. This one i am looking forward to :) i think when a guy picks a jewelry for you, it tells you alot about his thought process and how he views you as. I dont like gaudy things, i like simple classy yet intricate in its own way. I have also yet to celebrate valentines, xmas, and new years with a man, And birthdays :) I still havent done mud masks w/any men! or go to sauna w/him either. Oh and the fairrrr

But there is one thing that i look forward to, if it happens..

You know the airport scenes in movies? well this is how i pictured mine.

He was standing there among the crowd waiting for her. He wants to wait patiently but every second seemed like a minute, a minute an hour.. He wants to hold her again. He wants to gently graze her face and kiss her. But most of all he wants to see her smile again.
11:11 She should be here by now he thought. But w/her clumsiness and horrible luck, it wouldnt be a surprise if one of her luggage got lost.
He pushed his way to the front, and as soon as he situates himself, he looks up and there she was entering from the gates of the door. She sees him and he sees her, and both their jaws drop from excitement.
She drops her bags and instantly runs towards him. He holds her tight and carries her as he spins her around.
"Wait, I have something for you." He reaches in his pocket and pulls out a twix. Something he knows she craved during her absence. She smiles and hugs him.
They both leave the airport arm in arm, and of course, he is carrying her luggage. AHAHAHA

wow im a shitty writer.
But this is something i want to experience.
Everytime i see this in a movie, my heart melts from jealousy.
sighhhhhh

i want that kind of feeling. i want to be missed dearly. i wanna miss someone dearly.

but id like to reunite at an airport. ahaha