It's finals season, which equals anxiety season.

All this pressure, stress, lack of sleep, and memorization makes me miss the comfort of my home. Although I'm only one hour away from home (and I was there this past weekend), the serenity and condolence of my home just feel like memories made decades ago. My mom's texts of encouragement, 'oori ddal heemnae', bring about juxtaposing feelings that I don't quite know how to deal with-It motivates me to succeed and try hard for her sake, but at the same time it makes me regret leaving home.

however, leaving did bring about positives. I've found my own identity, my own self as a person, but sometimes my independence is too hard to bear. It's making me question my boundaries... how far am I willing to go? or... how far can I go, before I lose the person I am. Environment and situations change people. How much am I willing to change? If i put myself on the y axis correlated to the distance in the x axis, could I enter the negatives where I let my surroundings define me?

Sigh, there really isn't much point in asking these questions... But there is only one way to find out.