I have made my dad to be a lot of things- stubborn, greedy, ignorant.. none of these which are good.

At home, he is the alpha male. He has a certain seat in the table. And when we eat, only he gets to use the spoon and chopsticks with the gold tint along the edges.

Then yesterday, before my mom, my sister, and I were about to leave the house, I noticed that my dad has been wearing shoes with un-matching shoe laces- one brown, one black. He has been wearing these shoes to the office for quite some time. And yet, no one has said anything, or maybe no one has noticed.

..well at that moment I felt sorry for him. I felt sorry for the fact that he was once blind, he has 2 dysfunctional kidney and my mom's functional one, and that he's clumsy sometimes.

And maybe that's why he is all of those other things I made him to be. Maybe he prefers negativities over the sympathies, because the negatives are opinions, and the sympathies are facts.

i dont know how to continue on with this..