shady's back

Since im temporarily handicap, staying at home has got me thinking..

these thoughts need to go somewhere besides xanga.
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There are a lot of things that i hide about myself. Actually, I dont necessarily hide them, i just choose not to share it, unless asked.

I hide the people i hang out with, I hide my grades, I hide my relationships, i hide my life, i hide my feelings, i hide my pain, i hide my pride, i hide just about everything to everyone.
I never reveal everything to a single person. One person may know about one part of my life and the other will know about another part of my life. IDK why i do this. . . But i dont like people knowing everything about me. I dont have a best friend to spill everything to, although even if i did i wouldnt.

And honest to blog, a person, who shall not be named, once said to me, " you cant keep secrets, i feel like youre a person to tell someone"(something like that). I will admit, when he/she said this, i was butt hurt. And in all honesty, (not to offend you) do you know me like i know myself? I mean, id understand if i told you something that was sposed to be kept secretive but... have i?
I'm not like those other girls who say "hey dont tell anyone but so and so did this and this..."
I know myself to be different from them. My secrets usually start off as " hey i havent told anyone but i did this and this.. or this and this happened to me" i dont think ive spilled other peoples secrets to people who did not know.

idk.
its late and my foot is in pain, and my stomache has cramps.

lets just say, there are alot of things id like to be open about. And as much as i hate to admit, we live in a very unaccepting world. We can fake it and say "who gives a fuck?" but in reality.. there is always someone that does.

SUCK IT UPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP

p.s. I want that ring.. i just cant seem to find it on their website, if anyone knows the price for it let me know. But i better not see any of you hoes purchasing it :)