i dont know who im trying to fool, but it really aint me.
You said you could try to mend my wounds. You tried.
You said you could try to work things out. You tried.
But we arent the same people anymore. We are not who we were. We're different.
I am different.

I dont want to regret anything in life. Its my policy. My past is what brings me here today; It's what shapes me into the person i am this instant.

Dont say i dont want you in my life. If anything you are a part of me also.

***

Sometimes I wonder where my emotions have disappeared to. Of course i have my lady-moments, when my hormones are off balance and all that is left of me is emotions, but generally speaking, ive misplaced my emotions.

So before i sleep i force-shed a few tears, just so i know im still human.

I just need to feel again.

***

Its been a while since ive felt passionate about anything in life anymore.
besides "moving forward" what have i got to look forward for?

I just dont know.

I admire Ms bunch and Mr knight for being so passionate about the subjects they teach.

Every day the same, Every Year the same.

..every day, every year, the same.

How do they do it.

I just dont know.

blahhhhhhhhh I need to be mobilee.

I dont want to be stuck in traffic anymore.

How many more years, months, weeks, days, hrs, minutes, seconds will i be able to endure.

***

Lord, I really need you more than ever.

Temptation&fear.

Surpisingly, no more doubt. Idk how, but i can feel you here.

Your presence is stronger than ever.
The only thing in my life, I'm so sure about.