i know i shouldnt feel jealous but im jealous that you talk to her alot now.

We used to be close, we used to be.

And i cant help but miss it. I cant help but miss you.

Sometimes i wish you holding me as i spill my disappointments in life to you. And although your optimism doesnt help, i miss it. I miss our late night dinners to guppy. I miss you going beyond to make things happen for me.

I miss so many things. I dont want to miss anything anymore.

I'm such a mess. I need to get out of here and not focus and miniscule matters like these.

I need focus, i need a path.

Lord, I need you.

Let me be strong.

I just cant let myself be w/someone righ now. I just cant let myself fall for another. I just cant let myself be emotionally involved anymore.

Thats my problem. Im too involved.

But its my passion, emotion is wat drives me to want to do the things i want to do.

Im caught in the middle, and my emotions are pulling my arms in both directions. I scream, what do i do? I yell in agony. When will this be over. When will my emotions come to an agreement. Something i can finally deal with.