I'm sort of in lost of words on how to phrase or organize this blog today..

So here i go, (literally, here i go) i found an apt in santa monica. It's final.. i move in june 30.

I'm not sure what and how to feel. I know that it's somethign that ive been waiting for this whole year. But should i feel excited? I'm just a big jumble of emotions... I cant seem to realize which "feeling" is which right now.

I have 3 other roommates 2 who are just living during the summer. I have my own room and there's a tiny gym and a pool in that complex. That's good..

I would like to tell you more, but im going off of what my mother told me about the place. I have yet to see it.


but damn.. june 30.........

Will i miss this place?
Will i forget?

im confused

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Hannah, Melissa, and I didnt go to gradnight yesterday.

Im pretty sure it was a blast and it was well worth the money.

But for me, i prefer the little insignificant moments in life.

Watching a movie w/the people that I like
Talking nonsense

Calling them when afraid

And it was free.

Sigh, I dont want to spend time building relationships like these again.

this is lame

Its so weird caus this is what i wanted. Maybe its wat i thought i wanted.

I wanted a change then..

But now that things are so great in my life.. i dont want it.

Do i need it? IDK.

I dont want to be hindered