The people i dont like are generally people i have no respect for.

Interesting.

I always seem to find myself in situations I end up not necessarily regretting but hoping things had turned out differently. Not because of a lack of a brain, more along the lines of an incline to decline. Pride is a ridiculously tall wall for most people.

I really dont understand the concept of pride. How can one be too prideful to apologize for their misdoings, mishaps, and misunderstanding. I'd be rich if i got a penny for each time i heard someone say "i have too pride to .." Oh please, you have to have something to be prideful for.

I guess thats why i never understood my dad. He was stripped of everything; his health, finance, friends, and family. But if there's one thing he held on to, it was his pride. And that is precisely what i didnt understand. He has nothing to be prideful for. He's too prideful to ever admit he's wrong, but i look down on him for that. If there's something you should hold on to, it should have been dignity.. not pride.
But i see how his dignity resides in his pride.

seriously though, men and their pride. Is it something we, as females, will fail to comprehend?
Or maybe vice versa.
Maybe men look at us and cant understand why we value dignity more than pride?

Idk wat it is.
I jsut know that pride gets you no where. Pride is an inhibitor of good relations.

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Another topic.
Fear in relationships.

Yes, we're going to fight, yes, we're goig to fight, and yes, we're *probably* going to fight. It's expected of in a relationship.

I hate/abhor/loathe/detest/ragingangertsunamityphooninfuriatedmadnessthesaurus.com such weaknesses. If hate is too strong of a word, then I fucking Hate it.
Some couples just argue, bicker, fight over the silliest, dumbest, retarded-est, list goes on.. sorta things! Why didn't you get me that cup, why did you do that, i told you to not chew w/your mouth open... blablabla. The thing is, they are fully aware of why they are annoyed of each other. "It's caus we're with each other all the time, little things start to annoy us"
Isnt the solution obvious then? stop spending so much time w/one another. jeebus.
dont get me wrong, i have respect for couples and their relationships, but if it comes to the point where i have to listen to their lil petty arguements, then it becomes my issue. I become annoyed also.

I'm just digging in the shitty hole you failed to fill up.

Sigh, i just fear that one day i will be in their shoes. Fighting about nothing. I just hope i will be able to detach myself from such things to avoid such matters.
I will not always be right, granted, but neither will the other side.

It's strange to have people try to align their bodies to perfectly fit with mine, when I'm so bent out of shape or vice versa. I dont want to come out changed by a relationship. But ithappens *shock*! . If you place value on compromise and weigh it, all you'll end up with is a broken scale. Cause as you should all well know, we are broken beings.


see ya, wouldnt wanna be ya.