Thursday, March 25, 2010

X-pedition


everyday we are constantly reminded of those who have made history; people who have made discoveries, changes, and impacts.
everyday we are constantly told of the capacity of our actions. Study=success, so then the latter Play=failure.
everyday we are constantly shown the lives of the haves and the have nots.

Everyday i am constantly wondering why these people and their actions and their belongings correlate to the lifestyles im living? Why the hell am i taking the paths that have been taken a million times over?

Why cant i cut some bushes, leave a trail, and make my own way?



and frankly, why do i care?



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I'm longing to leave this place. I want to be someone else, somewhere else, sometime soon.

Who am i fooling? im foolish to think that this sense of 'self confusion' will disappear with a new found setting and characters. ill still be me, ill still feel the same thing.

the freshness is temporary, and then the feeling of old, used, abused will be back.

I am worn and i am torn.

can i be renewed? can i be me? or will i be stuck being the 'ideal version of me'

Society can suck it.

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