I really need to start being one step ahead of the game.

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I think in a way this is my prime. Not the kind of 'prime' where you're not young but also not that old; 'You-have-the-looks kind of prime'. -no, I'm not referring to that kind of prime.

This is MY prime. Emphasis on the my. When I say this, I mean... i think this is my best.. this is my time. my my my.

My time to focus. My time to get my shit straight. My time to do well. This is my prime.

Mine. Not yours. Not his. Not hers. Mine.

And I think that's something hard getting used to. The singularity of the fact which refines solitude. And I'm quite getting used to and being comfortable with being alone.

note: Being alone and being a loner are completely two separate ideas. I have my share of companions, but I can do things on my own. I am my own person. More and more every day I look forward to 'my time'. My time to reflect on myself, things to do, food to eat, wants, needs. My time to read and write. I love it. I enjoy it.

I am in the middle of my soul search. No more who-am-i. More of this-is-who-i-am.