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It's been a while since I've been to an art gallery/museum. I feel so creativity-deprived lately.. I don't even have down time to paint or doodle something; no inspiration.

Sometimes I can't comprehend people's ignorance to the arts. They're always complaining about it's rudimentary style and how it's not complex enough to be appreciated. Oh and there's that one question that annoys me.., "what is art anyways?"

Why are we so dependent on living our lives according to standards?

Art-Let me break it down for you.

You have to be able to look beyond the obvious. Beyond that can of soup, beyond its physical attributions is an idea. & I think the man behind the idea is what's more intriguing.

And you know what? All it takes is one idea.

Blek le Rat.

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"He was someone who could be perceived as 'having it all'. But he chose me. He chose to get down on one knee and ask me to share his days, my days, our days to come. He spoke of becoming a professor in Connecticut and how we will have 3 kids, Karis, Luna, and Aaden, live in a house with a huge backyard near the hills, and just.. basically start a life there...

It was strange. He was saying all these beautiful wonderful things to me.. but all I could see at that moment was someone with nothing. He was holding my hand so tight, trying to convince me to commit, almost begging me.-And all I could see was this man that I know to have it all, and then to be stripped of it at that moment.

He didn't have me. Not because I said no, but because his plans didn't have me. I was like those characters who take no part in anything.. I was just there. He had me in his hands, but he didn't have me. I wasn't his to have."

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Sorry for the jump in thoughts, and how most of my blogs lack coherency.. but neither does my life or my thoughts.

I took my last final today- Calculus.. and there was this one optimization problem that definitely caught me off guard. It was something I had glanced at right before the test, and here it was just chillin' waiting to be solved.

You know what the worst part is? Not just that I couldn't solve the maximum area inscribed in the triangle, but I knew how to do the problem.. I know how to solve optimization problems, just not this one.

And time and time again, I feel like I'm always running into the same problem over and over; yet each time a little different. And it's just frustrating to go through all the steps you know by experience, lessons, and instinct and yet that damn problem is still there.. just chillin'

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