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All these thoughts lighting up in my head are driving me crazy. I wish I had learned to develop the skills to express and organize everything in my head and just condense it into a 2hr show about my life. A figure like Barbara Walters would be asking all the necessary questions needed to be asked, and I will comfortably tell her everything she needs to know about me. I'll tell her my accomplishments, my setbacks, my issues, my goals, all which influenced me to be the person I am today. We can chit chat in my car as we cruise along the places I cherish. We can stop by Santa Ana and meet all the homeless people I've grown to love and perhaps even Lees Sandwhich, where most of my sleepless high school nights were spent. Then her special 20/20 editing crew will edit this interview,throw away the useless information of my life, and keep all the quintessential details about me. And within that 2 hr compacted special on my life, people will be able to see gist of who I am.
Sadly, life doesn't work out that way. I need an inspiration..
I don't know about you guys, but most of my profound thinking occurs in the shower. Things strike me in the most unusual ways possible. --I grab my towel after a looong hoooot hot hot shower, and face the imageless mirror. Everythings a blur. I swipe down the part where my face should be, and surprisingly it's me. But interestingly, I see a different part of me, a part of me stripped down and vulnerable. The image glaring back is always something new. And by this point I should be familiar, but this image reveals something I didn't know before.--- I don't like to sing in the shower, but I'll be first to admit I like to pee as I shower. ahaha yea.im such a gangsta gangsta.. Anyways, Everything about the shower is relaxing, and at that moment, everything is about me. This time of the day is always just reserved for me. No one else can enter, No one else can join. This is my time and no one is allowed to bother me.
Unfortunately, the hot water at my house only lasts for about 7-10 minutes. My thoughts disappear, and I'm sucked back into this egocentric world that has no sympathy for others.
bleh

"Everything has to fall apart, for it to fall back into place."I thought this already happened, ages agoo...haha.

Let's keep it together, yea yea yea

when will I ever discover my inner peace?!

In life there are situations

which can turn into tribulations

and sometimes with no solutions.

so is it our job to keep relations

so that we can have a better nation

for our future generations

to avoid damnation

created from out dissatisfactions?

Let the present use their imagination

choose better words, better diction

to fix existing friction.

Bring our world into jubilation.